# 494: Guilt

Silke Schmidt
4 min readOct 18, 2023

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Lebanon Poetry

© Silke Schmidt 2023, taken at the Armenian Genocide Museum in Byblos, Lebanon

Guilt rules history

80 years

So much horror

So much death

Do humans learn?

Wounded hearts

Cannot love

Where is God?

Believers ask

Non-believers blame

A man with plastic bags

“My children are in there,

What is left of them.”

No rules anymore

“We are used to this.”

What a lesson.

“What does not kill you

Makes you strong”

True and terrible.

Wounds stay for generations

Bloody inheritance

An eye for an eye

Leaving or staying?

Luxurious questions

Your passport tells the story

Of who you are

Of who you can be

Of where to flee

Of life and death

Watching the news?

Too hard to do

What can be done?

Just moving on?

One day at a time

No words for this

Parents born in war

Grandparents lost in war

Children carry the burden

Of sadness and grief

Who was it?

Who shot the rocket?

Who is guilty of this?

Does it matter?

A picture in my room

A child without future

Empty eyes and dusty clothes

My reminder of worlds

The “West” does not see

Looking away is a sport

Numbing feelings takes practice

“We did not know”

Total surprise!

Keeping people in prison

Making mothers starve

The right to exist

A question of politics?

Of the church?

Or of common sense?

Hatred does not stop

If the hater gets killed

Every drop of blood

Finds its martyrs

Born somewhere

Dying somewhere else

In-between a life

That was never safe

“Mama, do you have time?”

“I have to work,

Later, my dear”

What does guilt mean

In our own lives?

Is there anything

We can learn from this?

Or shall we just jump

Into the grave today?

Hope is a nice word

For prayers and talks

On some days

It does not do the trick

Saving the world

Is a wonderful cause

To live for the world

And bury the self.

Sudden death teaches you

How much you can love

And it reminds you of the days

When you sealed your heart

Too busy were you

Working for the future

When the bombs drop

And the siren howls

You realize at once

That the future is the past

And your dreams all gone

Get up now

And ask your heart

Is there one thing today

That can give me joy?

“How can that be,

you crazy fool?

A day of grief,

And you seek fun?”

Guilt has many faces

That make us feel small.

Often we forget

That shame stays long.

Whatever it is

That you learn from this

Nobody can judge

Your inner choice

Your life has value

And nothing was in vain

Not a single moment

Of your efforts lost

Go to the mirror

And look at your face

Do you see the light

Between the tears?

Do you see the wrinkles

Your laughter left?

Your life is right here

In this sad moment

It is in your hand

To keep walking

There might be more tears

That you stored for ages

There might be more things

That could be done

This terror in the world

Will not be stopped by you

But your light will keep shining

For the ones around

If you heal the wounds

Of your own heart

You plant the seed

For love to win

over cruelty and hatred

over bloodshed and greed

The old man on the bench

Starring into the unknown.

“I did not want to live

To see this again.”

He takes my hand

And looks me in the eye

“Young lady, listen,

Walk your own path,

And never forget

What is important in life.”

Dear leaders of the world,

You have failed.

We have failed,

To learn from the past.

Put your rulers

And maps

your pens

and compasses

In a big box

and lock it forever

Stop dividing the world

Like a piece of cake

You are more than full

And fat already

With all the sins committed

People are not pawns

And politics is not chess

You will learn this lesson

When your hour has come

Then you will die in darkness

With only guilt in your heart

May the Gods of this world

Help those who pray and mourn

And may those in power

Have the courage to risk

Their egos and interests

Their plans and promises.

The time is now

To use your power

To do what it takes

To prevent more misery

The past is past

And guilt is not a good advisor

If you want to show

What responsibility means

Open your eyes

To the here and now

Forget the labels

Of friends and enemies

Tear down the walls

Of broken souls

In 80 years from now

Your grandchildren can say

We live in a world

Without war and guilt.

The time is now

To make that decision.

If you need time to think

You have not understood

What is written here.

Words are weapons

To touch the heart

Ease the pain

awaken your spirit

And change your path.

Guilt is not a currency

That pays for change.

Your courage has the power

To frame history

In a new way

“I have a dream

That one day…”

Oh, what a shame

We messed it up…

But as long as I live

I will never stop believing

That the day will come

when your dream comes true.

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